carnival HALLOWEEN party

DEVIL FAMILY. 

DEVIL.

BRIDE OF DEVIL.

SPAWN OF SATAN.

  

Happy Hallllllllllllllllllooooooooooooowwwweeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeennnnn MUhahahahahahahaha

oh my gosh, i was sitting here with my baby sleeping and squirming on my lap and looking at these gorgeous photos and i thought in my brain, "i want to have more babies." not right this minute, mind you, i mean years from now or whenever we feel like it, but i've decided I do. and this is NEW. ooooooo mama.

 

photos: wildflowersphotos.com

big ol 1 month old baby guy

yesterday we went to the pediatrician for Freddie's 1 month check up! 1 month! what a big boy! Well at birth he was 7lbs 9oz, 21.5inches long and now he is 9 lbs 15 oz, 22 1/4 inches!! (good thing too because we're outta Newborn diapers...time to start on the 1s!!!)

Well, he's alert, healthy, happy, sweet, darling, cute, amazing, handsome, wonderful, FUNNY, silly, and every other good thing.

Me? well, apparently I over did it. my bleeding and level of soreness indicate that I've agitated the site of the placenta and my midwife told me I'm basically back to week 1. :( we were doing so well at my diet and resting and I was getting better so I really did jump the gun and did too much too soon. sad. not to mention the hemorrhoid and what i have to do to get rid of that. TMI? nah...I had a baby. nothing's too much for me.

So now it's going to be hard to keep myself down...but I can do stuff as long as I adequately rest as well. we've also had zilch food lately due to being outta town. but we went shopping last night and stocked up on fruits, vegetables, and coconut water.

breastfeeding is going great. I'm really starting to enjoy it. I did buy a simple pump and will start that up in a bit so that Collin and I can take advantage of my parents/free babysitting.......BUT WAIT! that would mean I'd have to leave Fred. and I just can't do THAT.

not too much sleep going on these days, but i AM happy! ha!

shoppin...

 i love fresh and easy.

 his fav sleeping position/place: right on the breast.

 cutie.

PS. SHINE PROJECT EVENT TONIGHT! Frederick, Collin and I will be there.

fall break 2011

hung out with Joseph his last day of fall break. 

I love this kid. We've been hanging since sept 1998.

We are the champions. my. friend. 

is joseph not SO david money,

WHO COMES HOME IN THREE WEEKS from his 2 year mission in the Dominican Republic, BTW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!?

sun day.

freddie and momma

passed out with Grandma

halloween possibility????

nap time

this morning: frederick is one month old today. one month ago this moment collin and freddie and i were cuddling in bed at blossom birth center for our first night together. we were all tired. we had all worked hard to be together. we were all a little in shock. but there was quite a lot of love in that bloody bed. yes, bloody. 

today i decided we'd go to church. i hadn't been since the week before frederick's birth, and he hadn't been, well, at all of course. i planned to just go to sacrament meeting. i really really missed taking the sacrament, singing hymns, worshipping God. but i didn't know if we were ready for all the touching and holding of frederick and everything...so we were just going to go home after sacrament meeting. 

here's fred with grandma before church. he was dressed so cute. halloween socks!!!

so we get to church; we barely make it, and everyone is eyeing us, loving freddie. my dad held him to show him off a little as we all sang the opening hymn and took the sacrament. then fred decided he was hungry and let out a little shriek. obviously I'm new to the whole church plus baby thing, so i looked at him and then was like, i guess that's our cue to go out in the hall!!! time to try our hand at the land of the mother's lounge. wow, i'm really at that stage in my life!!! so I was sort of nervous and almost just nursed out in the foyer because i'd heard stories of how awkward the mother's lounge and conversation there can be. but once again, you can't believe everything you're told and not everyone has the same experience because i loved it!!!! there were two raelly nice women in there. it was almost like a support group: we talked about breast feeding and being a new mom and life and how to handle it all. the talks from church were heard over a speaker in there, so we also listened and discussed. one of the talks was about celebrating the small successes everyday amd not being too hard on yourself. it was really humbling AND uplifting.

I loved being at church so much that i decided to stay for the whole time. i love the gospel; it brings so much light and happiness into my life. for second hour, i went to my dad's class. he teaches the 17-18 year olds and we talked about change and decisions. he said that it wasn't too long ago that i was sitting right there in that same room (literally...it was the ward i grew up in), in their position, figuring out what i was going to do with myself. I used to say that i didn't care if I ever got married, and i certainly didn't really want children ever. but i changed. i grew and learned and changed and decided it was something i did want. and now i have darling amazing frederick. collin and i both have him. and in 15 or so years he will be in that same position, making choices and figuring out what he wants to do in life. so cool.

lastly was relief society, and such sisterhood. i love that feeling. i was thinking in there about now how much MORE things with the gospel click and matter and how much i want to be a better person because of freddie. i want to be a good mother to him. i want to be a better wife and friend, and family member and citizen. he puts everything into perspective and i've found that i pray more sincerely lately. 

cute/funny pictures my mom took of uncle joe and fred while i took a nice hour long nap.

 hahaha, i love his little hand!!!!

i made those cookies. they were a DELICIOUS sugar cookie recipe and were supposed to look like candy corns...meh??

COLLIN GETS HOME TOMORROW

DAVID GETS  HOME IN THREE WEEKS 

THE SMITHS GET GERE IN A COUPLE OF WEEKS 

AND THEN WE BLESS FREDDIE!!! 

YESSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS!!

ps. america's next top model is currently doing an ALL STAR CYCLE. it's incredible.

watch it. 

i love you, kid.

TODAY: my mom and I were out shopping most of the day. In the fabric store I breast fed Freddie in the bathroom...standing up the whole time so it kind of broke my back, but he had a good latch and there was no seating. THEN at Frys...once again started in the bathroom, but this lady showed us a place with couches by the pharmacy. awesome. this older lady told me that I'm doing the right thing. hehe.


when I was little, my mom and dad wrote to me in a journal to document funny things I experienced. I found it later in life and apparently I had an imaginary friend named Mary whom I would talk to in ice skating class. I need to do that for fred...the journal writing.

Frederick....put you in your fall clothes this weekend. you're so cute in everything. you immediately fall asleep when you get put in your car seat and it's really cute because you get sweaty and get wicked bed head. you're always grunting and making adorable stretching noises while you sleep. you sleep SO well in public places, but wake up whenever I put you down. you love to be cuddled up on someone's tummy. you are one month old TOMORROW, and I just can't believe it. I can't believe you're mine and daddy's. I can't believe I get to watch you grow my whole life. your dad and I were talking the other day and we decided that you've filled every void...ones we didn't even know we had. when we're out EVERYONE stops us and asks about you and tells us how amazing and beautiful and adorable and cute and sweet and calm you are! this one guy was even moved to TEARS when he saw you...awkward....haha....It's true though. you're such a good little baby. full of character too.

i love you, kid.

also: the kitties are so sweet. we've been staying at my mom's house and they just follow me around and mainly stay in our room. all three of the munchkins are sleeping currently. I bought stuff for babe room decorations at the fabric store today. I hope it goes well! Also, I'm about to go make some cookies I found on pinterest. SWEET. THE LITTLE GUY IS ASLEEP! Now's my CHANCE!!!!!

My mom, dad, aj and I watched INSIDIOUS tonight. it was pretty awesome. pretty scary.

It's fall. It's baby. It's almost HALLOWEEN!

that means everything good is about to happen. 

Freddie is so tall that he's fitting into clothes a little bigger, but his legs and arms are skinny so they don't quite fill it up. he's perfect.

brushing, kicking, yawning, hungry

up: pumpkin head in fall
down: Dot with her kill

 HI happy guy

using the force to look into my SOUL

 up: cute baby

 down: pizza with family

We miss Collin/daddy. tonight he had dinner with best friends.

date night

Collin headed out of town today for a work trip, so he and little pumpkin head and I went on a family date last night. Grandma Smith made this adorable hat for him. So cute!!!

Of course this guy charmed everyone in the restaurant and then promptly fell asleep on the booth bench like usual. What a great date. Then CS and I could discuss our hopes, dreams, and fell in love all over again. I'm gonig to miss him so much while he's gone. But it'll be quick, and Freddie and the kitties and I will have fun at my parents' house watching Halloween movies. 

the server gave all three of us fortune cookies.

Here they are in this order: Collin, me, Freddie!

So great, huh!!!

woman in black

This movie looks so terrifying. I can't WAIT!

Look what I found

I was cuddling Freddie last night and I realized two things:

-he's a human. a REAL tiny human. his legs and knees and arms are so little and cute. I just can't get over it.
-he has grown! my little baby guy is going to grow up so fast and we have to take in every SECOND of it so we don't miss it.

Good night.

Ps. My right breast just started spraying milk. awesome.