Woke up with two snuggle bugs in good moods at the foot of our bed. It's so nice when we don't wake with someone crying! We have been consistently putting our bugs to sleep in their beds in their rooms.  Hattie doesn't nurse at all to sleep anymore. Lots of transitions for these cosleepers and night nursers. They have been doing pretty good. It gets scary in that old dark room with noises and vents. And Hattie is such a pillow talker. Hahah. They have been really sweet with each other. 

Hattie was stirring and Freddie went over and said, " hi Hattie." "You can sleep in my arms." Hehehehhe. 

Then he told her she's really warm and told me she's hot from a fever. Hhaha. 

No such thing but she got up and said,"let's jump!!"

Then Fred (whom Hat calls "Red"): "let's jump and bump into each other and fall down."

Luckily, no injuries. 

Then they are being silly, kicking their feet, etc. Freddie tells Hattie what to do and she happily obliges. 

Dot just watches. Collin is trying to sleep. I have to pee but don't want to get up. Baby is kicking and flipping. 

Good good feelings this early morning. 

....and I just got a head butt to the face and my tooth cut my lip....

Wild ones

There's an Instagram account I follow of a woman who about 2 years ago lost her little son. He was 3 or 4 and was hit by a car and killed in front of the house they were at. The woman and her husband have held tight to each other through this sad experience. She tastefully shares her heart and and tries to serve others to keep positive. I cannot imagine the horrific pain of such a thing. I have continued to follow her as she posts about her blessings as well as her sorrows while enduring her trial. 

They very recently had their second child, a little girl, and yesterday she she shared this: 

The caption said, "made Mickey pancakes this morning for Ryan. As Mila and I go about our day, I'm trying to imagine how it would be with Ryan running wild around us. If he were here I'd have made him these this morning..."

This touched my heart very deeply. It reminded me that though life can be challenging and mundane, I am SO LUCKY to have two healthy children, even if they are wild--even when they don't listen or have tantrums in the middle of the store or wont go to sleep early.  Yes it was a hard transition for me to go from 1 child to 2 children. And i know many frustrating experiences will come with entertaining an active opioniated toddler, driving a social pre schooler around to his different activities while nursing and caring for a newborn all day. What I feel from her post does not diminish my own experience, but I do feel a great amount of gratitude for my children, my circumstances and even my trials. As I turn to the Lord every time I struggle, I receive peace. That doesn't always mean things get easier but it means I know Heavenly Father and Jesus Christ love me. I have felt their love and know it exists. Peace fuels my faith and endurance. 

"I am a child of God;

His promises are sure.

Celestial glory shall be mine 

If I can but endure."

Babe 3 little bee, little bee. (Pand-apple)

I had a dream that I had a baby girl. Collin informed me as I wasn't there for the birth....ha!

Real life:

I was a little worried early on in the pregnancy about how it would work out but I prayed and got confirmation that it was the right thing. Since then I've been nothing but excited about this baby!!!!! It has been wonderful. Then this past week we had a somew hard times and I was reminded of how little I know what I'm doing and how the baby is probably going to be the easy part...it's the two big crazies I have to be worried about. It's going to be hard. Really really hard. But it's also going to be wonderful. Hattie and Freddie have been developing their relationship lately. They have become friends. They love playing together and talk to each other. We do lots of arts and crafts together. It's so funny and fun to listen to their conversations. Last night i asked Freddie what our new baby is going to be like. He said, "me." Good answer boy, really good. 

I took these pictures with the self timer in my bedroom alone. I would have been so embarrassed if anyone walked in on me. Hahaha.....

..Around mid-20s week..

LOVE YOU, little baby. We are all excited to meet you! 

Ps. We have started doing chores together all the time. Freddie responds so well!!!!! He does some stuff that is just helping out the family stuff and during the days I give him extra stuff that he can earn money for his bank by doing. He gets .05 per chore. We love reading the Mercer Meyer book, Just my Piggy Bank. 

What's happenin' hot stuff??

Lately life...

Freddie got a new bike for Christmas and we have to get creative trying to find places to ride it. We found a little park that has a flat, mostly snow-free parking lot. 

Hattie just wants to SWING!

My big kids. Really. Getting so big. 

This was a miracle that she was wearing boots and gloves. 

Freddie's first day of primary this year. And his second year of primary. He's a CTR now. He gave a talk about the scriptures and told his favorite story which is of Ammon cutting off the bad guys' arms. We remembered hat last year he gave a talk on the first Sunday of the year too-his first day as a sunbeam. He's just a big kid now. 

It was fun to be in primary and watch him interacting with all the other kids and teachers. He loves participating in every activity. He has an awesome sweet class and he LOVES his teachers.  They are good friends of ours and are just funny, awesome spiritual cool people. After Fred gave his talk and say back down in his seat, the kids in his class all put their arms around him. It was seriously one of the sweetest things I've ever seen and I totally got tears in my eyes.

Having fun. Till Hattie realized she was wearing flats and was freezing. 

We go down in the basement lots now. We cleared The big space for the kids to ride around in circles on their bikes and scooters. It's great for getting our energy on these long snowy cold days. We also set up a bunch of toys and puzzles and games and books down there really fun to play with. Our next step in our house will be to organize that room into a game room playroom with a table and shelves and couches. And figure out how to have all our storage and crap down there too. 

So happy to have the double jogging stroller back! We couldn't fit it in the moving truck and finally got it when we were in phx for Christmas. 

Uncle AJ came to town and we went to Crystal Hot Springs an hour north of us. Whoa it was the best ever. Super warm natural mineral water. It's supposed to be super healing too. It has the most minerals in a springs in the world. We and the kids loved it. Spent hours there and then went and explored the tiny town of honeyville. 

Random mansion on the side of the road. Super funny. 

Brigham city temple! 

Went to an incredible Korean BBQ place that AJ recommended to us and LOVED it. Bumblebee BBQ & Grill. So good. 

Then met up with David and Amelia at Sweet Toothfairy. Whoa hat place is good. I've heard about it forever and it was our first time. 

(Dave and Mia are pros). We got a bunch of stuff and all tried it. I've been staying away from sweets so this was overload a little bit honestly, for the name it wasn't overly sweet. A good balance of a salty cookie or cake to the frosting. Anyway....

Loved seeing my little brother so much. He's a sweet uncle and friend. He's an amazing listener, is so smart and self aware and fun. 

We got home and if you look very closely you'll see the deer on the Capitol lawn. Freddie and I got closer and saw that there were about 9 of them. They started getting jumpy so we backed off. It was fun. My first born is up for almost anything. I love having adventures with him. 

Back row at church. 

Best breakfast place^^^^ Cafe on 1st

Sweet honeys after a hard day for us all. More on prenatal thoughts on the next post. 

Grocery shopping day. 3 stores. They were awesome helpers. 

Gonna be dinner and the gorgeous Christmas present made for us by my sister in law, Kendra. We LOVE it and have used it a ton already. 

Busin. Muffins. 

Sleeps. Hahahahahahha ha. Freddie. 

Spying on her in the bath. Ana and Batman were having some sort of love connection. 

A week of snow. It's beautiful. Honestly I didn't like the cold and snow at first but I'm really loving it now. I think I'm adjusting to colder weather and this whole new life in general. Plus it's has been 37 instead of 25. That helps. 

Getting ready for science class at the Gateway Discovery Childrens Museum. We got a membership. Honestly it is just not as good as the Phx Childrens museum. But it's still fun and good enough and will be so great to get out and play at during these long cold days. 

Mama daughter. 

I love this from the Ensign this month. ⬆️⬇️