What a morning.

So I joined a gym! And today I took a Zumba class which means Fred had his first day in the kids club. He cried hard. It was hard on me. They said he would settle down but every time a parent would open the door to drop off their child, he would start crying again. It was hard but after a lot of reading, advice from experienced moms, child care attendees and breastfeeding groups, talks with Collin and PRAYERS, I do believe that he will be okay and that it won't be a damaging traumatic experience in the long run. It's not the same thing as leaving him alone in the dark to "cry it out." There were sweet women who were holding him and comforting him. This will be good practice for going into nursery next month at church.

Goals!!!!!!! Dreams!!!!!!!! 2013!!!!!!!

New Years!!!! I want this year to be awesome!!!! I WANT TO HAVE A BETTER ATTITUDE.
I want to have another baby or get pregnant.
I want to move...into a house with a yard so Fred and I can play out there all the time.
I want to HELP COLLIN REACH HIS GOALS AND DREAMS.
I want to read my scriptures daily and finish the Doctrine and Covenants. I want to read scriptures with Frederick. I WANT TO HAVE FAMILY HOME EVENING EVERY WEEK.
I want to be happy. I want to improve my marriage. It is wonderful now but we had lots of challenges in general this year and I want Collin to KNOW HE IS MY #1.
I want to stop yelling.
I WANT TO DO ZUMBA EVERY OTHER DAY AND YOGA THE DAYS IN BETWEEN.
I want to continue my video chat book club.
I want to write letters regularly again.
AND STARTING NOW Collin and I have a life goal of watching ALL the James Bond films! (I know, I know..."there are some that are really boring"...) we still want to do it!
This year feels good. I feel it in my heart and bones. I want to do good things with all the good things that have been given to me. Happy New Year!!

Happy 2013!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

(by the way....crazy that its 2013, huh?!)

remember...
2012 resolutions
Smith 2011 top 12
2011 party in DC