Working through some really interesting feelings right now. At 10 months Frederick has become fiercely independent at times. he hasn't eaten at night for the past three days. He also has a much harder time eating a complete meal of nursing without getting distracted. While some might call me lucky others might call me lost. Is there anyone out there who can relate? I feel like he doesn't need me anymore...well as much. I'm having a hard time understanding my new role. Today I spent time at my new yoga studio and absolutely loved it but a) felt guilty for being away and b) really really missed him. While at yoga I had a few great thoughts...that he'll still need me in other ways (but it doesn't make it easier quick yet) and also that my body is so important. It is the key for me. It is essential for Eternal Life and eternal happiness. I believe my role as mother is the most important on this earth and my body is how I become a mother. I need to do everything I can to take care of my body so that I can continue to have healthy pregnancies and births and the energy to raise my children. I'm still working on cutting out things but I've loved working out to Zumba and other cardio stuff as well as an work outs and yoga. (baby mama is my Fav). I have seen results and will continue to. Some people just lose their baby weight right away and I think that's so awesome. But my body takes it slow. It will be around a year that it takes me to get back to normal but that's okay! Well down to a size I'm happy with anyway.
Another question: how do I make sure Frederick is going to get a the nutrition he needs if he's not nursing as much throughout the day? Time to hit the books. I'll start at La Leche League and the American Academy of Pediatrics.
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super cute pictures of Freddie. I think he likes that bear. Might be a good bday present! Love you both. Mom
ReplyDeleteFreddie is SO dang cute! He really reminds me of all my babies!
ReplyDeleteI know it can be hard to make the emotional transition when your baby becomes more independent. It has always helped me to try to remember that I am just a guide to my boys. In the eternal scheme, they are my brothers and right now I am charged with taking care of their needs so they can grow to be their own men. When I think of them that way, it is easier for me to be proud of every development, and just be glad I'm there to witness them growing and learning.
DON'T feel guilty for being away from your family for yoga! Mother's are on the job 24/7 in the beginning so when you reach a point where you can take two hours out to get some balance...that's wonderful! You have such a great family! Love you guys!
Transition time! It's is always wrought with diverse feelings - joy, pain, sadness, elation, wonder, amazement, longing... agh! I get ya! But I don't think it ever stops. You always want your baby and yet the growing up is so fun to experience. I love ya! And Freddie will always love you and need you, so that's the most important thing, right?
ReplyDeleteHe's such a cutie!
You're so right about the gift of our bodies! You're inspirational!