I'm really tiring of these mornings when Collin has to leave for work so early and I'm alone in our bed. I want to hold each other a while more in the morning. My only consolation is to type. But the words I've typed say to not ask, "why me?" but, "what do I do?" and, "what do I learn from this?" I learn that I love my husbands smell more than anything in the world.